Today is going okay. Bowling.
BETTER
I was worried yesterday that I was becoming irrelevant. But I’m not. People just get busy is all.
CREATIONING
Stuff I created in despondent response today. Update; I’m fine.
DECOMPRESS
I believe if I was only less intense, then I wouldn’t be such a bother to people. My issue is that I care too hard but I hardly show that I care. Instead of compassion and affection that comes off as genuine, I tend to show a much uglier synthetic version. It’s disgraceful the way I carry myself sometimes. Sincerely, I believe people would prefer if I kept it less intense. I just tend to linger because I feel fear in being within my own presence. It depresses me sometimes to have to face my own problems without a reminder of how beautiful the outside world is. I shouldn’t be putting so much pressure. I should not. Just no. I’m not as trustworthy as one may think of me as. But I don’t think I’ve ever seemed the solid type. I doubt I can convince otherwise.
CONCERN
Every time I feel clearer, It gets foggier
everytime it gets better, it grows in fodder
everytime we joke around, I just choke on down
there’s a standard to reach and I’m just not doing that. I need to do a better job of looking out to reach it so I don’t cause pain.